(sorry for my english, this is not my 1st language)

i dont want to live, but recently i've read on wiki that s..ide of somebody affects on average 6 folks that knew the victim of s..ide, and now i think that i just cant k.. myself because this might hurt my friends' feelings, and i dont want them to feel bad because of me. and now i dont know what should i do. i really dont like my life and im tired of anything, but at the same time i cant just leave all my friends alone w/ their own depression and just leave this world. i just dont want be the reason of anybody's progression of depression.

21F here… I’ve been struggling with sadness and shit for awhile now and I don’t really have a support system. My family doesn’t believe in mental health (they’re Arab lol) and when I’d try to tell them I’m stressed they would just turn it around and blame me so I can’t talk to them about anything. My past relationship with my dad is also playing a big role in why I feel the way I do at times because it wasn’t the best in the past and it was physical at times and we wouldn’t talk for a long time while living under the same roof so i feel like I’m just this big mess of confusion and social anxiety and i lack the feeling of being loved and cared for. Me and my bf broke up recently (4.5 month of knowing him) but we were so close and he means so much to me, it was a mistake I made that caused us to split (we’re still good friends and hangout here n there but we are long distance of 7.5 hr drive). I feel like this breakup made me feel 100x worse because I literally can’t picture them out of

21F.. been fucking depressed for so long I genuinely don’t know if I am or not anymore. I am so happy at times but then reality hits and I’m back to normal. I get attached to people I like too hard and then it makes it worse. I feel detached from everyone. I don’t rlly have anyone to talk to much because I also don’t like stressing people out or being a burden on anyone. Idk how to feel anymore. I do things like a mini getaway with my friends but as soon as it’s over and I’m back home I just get this loneliness feeling. I feel alone even in a room full of people. It sucks because people see me as this happy person who’s always laughing and giggling but deep down I’m lowkey fucking tired of this shit but I don’t wanna be that depressing person around people u know? My friends make me feel happy yes but when I talk about anything it doesn’t really change anything. I’m just tired if that makes sense? Like not wanting to be here but wanting to be here because I’m scared of not being here.

After years of caretaker's fatigue from managing my now 11-year-old's behavior issues, I signed myself up for a 3 day per week program at our local crisis center. He has been diagnosed with disruptive mood deregulation disorder and ADHD, but in all reality, he most likely has a personality disorder. In 2023, we had the police out to our house something like 27 times over Memorial Day weekend and he followed that up with 8 back to back acute stays all over our state. He was finally admitted to a residential facility after we forced DCS' hand through a psychiatric lockout.

Well, he was home for about three months before he kicked it up again, this time over boundaries placed on a Nintendo Switch. After a several day meltdown, he jumped out of a second story window onto our driveway and eloped to a stranger's house about a mile down the road. He was taken to the hospital with a pretty bad head injury and after clearing trauma, was admitted to another acute stay. Tonight was suppo

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No amount of positive thinking, or mindset changing will improve your life. It's just an exercise in self gaslighting. Don't waste your time or energy. If your life sucks and it can't get better, it's better to just accept that and just escape, distract, or medicate your way through it, than expect anything will change for the better via chance, luck or effort. Certainly thinking it will, being positive etc is useless.

I'm done with myself. I'm aware that I haven't fully resolved my past problems from the childhood times, but couldn't I have at least some peace in life. The problem with having no goals and going nowhere is already solved. I'm even very outgoing person and in control of life, but this unbearable anxiety. It's just killing me and leaves me helpless, in the state of defenceless child. Imagination od self-harm and wanting to disappear is not possible to avoid. Just wanted to be a crybaby for a moment and not expecting any advice.

never was good in school, was one of the lowest grades kids in my year, but in math and gym i was very high, and those logical and easy classes. i always been very good at video games, card games, boardgames, sports and other stuff where you can use basic math and logcial thinking in.

finished high school with eeh lower grade score then most others i would say, but still a little bit under the avrage grade avrage in our country, (went to sport school so spport classes gave me a bit better grade). i fought i was just very good at math, cooking, food, logcial thinking, and i just was just bad at languge, history and remeber words.

started on uni right after, and it went worse, i just couldnt deal with it, so i failed and dropped out after 1 year, took a break 2 years, worked and tryed to go in sports, dint go well, went back to school, same shit, dint go well, i felt something was wrong with me. i contacted the doctor, about depresseion, talked about stuff why i was sad (sueside foguht

Don't think you're better than them or you're not the bad case. You'll feel so much better with them that the downsides are 100% worth it.

You can get off them when you were able to deal with the problems. You've suffered enough.

36, frustrated, angry, bored, uninspired and stuck in a safe, boring, but tolerable dead end job. A job which I'll be stuck doing for the next 30 years till retirement cause this is as far as I can go in my life. Failed and burned out from multiple business ventures, and have completely given up hope in building a successful business empire or doing anything of note period. I've resigned myself to my fate. My question is how to accept & cope with the misery that is my mediocre and boring life? Drugs? Alcohol? Criminal activity?

I'm very lonely and live thousands of kilometres from home, the only person I have in my daily life is one friend. lately he's been pretty obsessed with this girl and we haven't been talking so much because of it so I thought it would be the perfect time to through with it since I had a lot of alone time. I won't go into detail about what happened next but I do recall coming-to and him knowing I was depressed and not hearing from me for days he had decided to check up on me and see how I'm doing. when I explained to him what happened he broke down into tears and it's the only time I've seen him cry in the 7 years I've known him. I'm just shocked, I always wondered firsthand how people would feel if I did it and now I think I know. my family is really far away so they probably won't ever know this happened but I just don't know how to feel. I'm tired of feeling so much pain but I also take other emotions into account now, no antidepressants or therapists have ever been enough to heal th

Is this just me?

After my last break up I can't seem to get out from this depression relapse..

I reduced media use drastically, like almost to zero, I am swimming 3-4 times a week, doing yoga 1-2 times a week, going to work every morning with my bike, doing only cold showers, being in the sun, being in nature, playing my guitar, being around people as much as I can, being around my little dog and my cats, eating super super healthy, not doing any drug, not drinking, not smoking, reading self help books..

I'm doing everything, everything that can possibly be done without meds probably, but my mind feels so down and so "lazy", last night I was sleeping on the ground because I had scabies and got cured, I had my bed changed and didn't want to sleep in my bed without having a shower first, but it felt too hard to have a shower..

I've been wearing the same clothes for 3 weeks because it feels so hard to change myself and to wash them.

Even tho I'm really putting effort into all this stuff, I feel like I