If you examine the claim "you don't seem nonbinary", it falls apart so quickly. What does a nonbinary person seem like? It's not some a static third gender, it's a broad term that includes a lot of folks who present very differently to one another. It's really a very silly thing to say.
Trans imposter syndrome is real and it affects so many of us. There's a book that helped me a lot called "Am I Trans Enough?" by Alo Johnston. Basically echoing the others that you're the only person who gets to decide who you are. This book helped me sit with the questions about my gender identity and really feel my way through them.
You're feeling the way a lot of us have at some point in our lives. You're not alone in these feelings I promise. Good luck on your journey.
Everyone else has covered the important stuff, just want to say good luck. I'm similar age, I have similar worries, I've had similar questions, I'm starting hrt soon.
When my egg first cracked and I removed my body hair, before any other changes, I was struck with this incredible feeling of "ohhhhh I don't hate my body, I hate my (assigned) gender".
Like there's still a lot I wish was different and the hormones still have a lot of work to do, but seperating out the feeling of gender dysphoria from the rest of the body image stuff was a really powerful feeling.
I've caught up on your replies to others in this thread and I have a fuller picture of what you're dealing with. Shit is fucked. I'm genuinely going to celebrate when your vial comes. Solidarity sister.
Jeez. What is the background level of transphobia like there? Like the public discourse etc? I live on TERF island so i assumed things would be significantly better there.
:( that sucks. I don't know anything about Norwegian customs. The private service I use just writes prescriptions for you so you can get them filled in your local pharmacy but obviously that can get costly. I'm willing your vial to your door with all my might.
If my initial GP enquiry gets stonewalled this week I'll DM you about your specifics. I'm guessing it's really a pot luck as to whether your registered GP is cool like that or not. In my experience, usually if I can actually talk to a doctor they can be helpful but the front desk is so adept and efficient at triaging people out of their service it's a nightmare getting the face-to-face in the first place. Thanks for your response <3.
Got surrounded, harrassed and threatened by a bunch of rabid zionists and fascists while supporting a peaceful pro-palestinian group in my city yesterday. They were carrying IDF flags, calling us terrorists and Jew hunters and on top of all their usual depravity, were being virulently transphobic, attempting to single out any of us who were gender non-conforming and loudly, repeatedly agressively misgendering us. The police stood and watched as they got in our faces and threatened us with violence. But if we'd have raised a hand in self defence they would have immedaitely beaten and arrested us. My comrades were brave, composed and unyielding, but it was a horrible experience. I've been part of enough anti-fascist action to develop a pretty thick skin but yesterday was fucking horrible.
Today i have been trying to sort out blood tests for my GAHT and running into the standard NHS "we'd rather you just die" approach to healthcare. I don't have any transfem friends in my city to ask for advice from, but I'm gonna go to a social this week to see if I can meet some women who might be able to signpost me.
So not a great start to my week. But I will never let them crush me. I will fucking thrive out pure spite if I have to.
Girl I'm sure you've been through your options, but if you need numbers for other DIY sources you could try while you wait, DM me. Either way we're all rooting for your delivery to arrive! Hope you're doing okay.
Hnnngggg I want it so bad