went swimming for the first time in years🩱✨

in the women's changing room, a woman complimented my swimsuit 😭

it felt so great to be able to swim and move freely without shame - I don't think I had ever gone swimming before and not felt some significant shame about my body.

I'm still overweight, and it was hard in the past for me to see that my body shame was about the wrongness of my male body (e.g. not wanting to ever take off my shirt) and not about being overweight. (Probably relevant that I still felt that body shame even when I was "anorexic skinny" to use the words others have used to describe me during that time, whereas now I feel much more body acceptance despite still being overweight.)

anyway, yay - life is great