I keep texting him

Even though he’s not replying.

He’s got a fast car and I just wanna feel something other than this emptiness. Hollow. Nothingness.

He’s so sweet but I don’t deserve his sugar. I’m selfish. I just want to take. I don’t have anything for him but my dignity. He doesn’t want that I don’t think.

I’m addicted to you and you know it. Shouldn’t I get at least something good for that? I’m drowning in you. Your water’s too deep… but I want to swim. I want you to see I’m good. ————- You tell me to stop playing games but it’s just me deleting messages when I’m more sober headed. Need your validation