I've thought about this to, I'm doing quite well financially, not rich, but rich enough where I could buy a humble couple acres in the countryside and do sustenance farming/gardening while following my hobbies and doing small work to sustain myself slowly rather than working my big corporate job and paying a mortgage and running the capitalist treadmill

I haven't made the decision yet, but I'm building towards it

I have a nice, but small, garden in my backyard with a hammock, and I find myself escaping to it whenever I have a spare moment because its one of the very few places I feel calm and happy and meaningful - and eating veggies, herbs, and flowers strait from the garden, from your soil and labor, is something that truly is special and not reproducible at any store or restaurant - no matter how fancy

I think I'd rather live slowly and simply and humbly with my garden and hobbies, than how I'm living now rushed, complexly, hollowly in the city with my corporate job

And likewise, if you're concerned about tankies driving the message of the protest, join the movement and add your voice.

I need America to not fall to the current fascists literally in power right now, who are making lists of people with genetic traits, who are kidnapping residents and citizens off the streets and putting them in black sites, and who are arresting judges, while they stiffle Congress, supreme courts, and state and city governments.

I have one enemy who wants to kill me, and another who wears a colored shirt. I know who my enemy is and who I need to protest against.

I know which plays a larger threat.

Please show up at your local mayday protest next Thursday, check with 50501. This cannot continue.

The cabinet will not save us.

The legislature will not save us.

The courts will not save us.

We must save us.

3.5% or more of the US must come out and protest this coming Thursday and through the weekend.

Skip work, skip school, skip whatever you can, if it's not stopped soon with a show of unity we will not recover.

https://www.mobilize.us/mayday/

$500 per week - 500x48=24k with 4 weeks of thankfully "unpaid" vacation

I don't have a solution, but its really beautiful to hear your relationship's clear communication, accepting love, and respect for each others needs.

Its a tough spot to be in, the solution agreed on may require a sacrifice in the way things are today, but even still, the fact that you can talk and share and love through this is a powerful thing and will lead to a better solution than otherwise.

So long as you both are listening, respecting, and loving each other it will be OK even if how the relationship is defined today changes.

I'd counter part of that is that US law is based on common law, which is defined by prior court cases not just law - vs civil law which is only based on law.

There are issues with both of course, but, its common law that requires lawyers and knowledge of every court case and knowing what a judge in the 1800s thought a word means to win or lose a case.

I think the common law system of justice is deeply flawed and leads to this legalese where everything is vague and malleable with no certainty

You will have infinite time to be dead whenever you die, there is no point to being alive other than to serve as the singular fragile short pause between two infinities.

What you do with this time is up to you.

You can only change things when you are alive.

I'll reflect on this more over time, but right now however the hermit want I think stems from three things:

1: sometimes I do not want to be observed - I want to be loud and dance silly and be messy or more generically just be in a state that does not match how I want to present myself, and equally I do not want my loudness, silliness, messiness, etc to impact or inconvinence others even if they're too kind/tolerant to complain

2: I derive a lot of joy from learning and doing - be that replacing a toilet, raising chickens and eggs, creating a trail, cutting lumber and building a desk etc - and these activities are more complicated as part of a community and requires a level of communication and coordination that is hard for me

3: I want control to do things the way I think they should be done, and not have to submit to others that have power to overrule me within my dominion - I don't mind yielding control and power in community spaces so long as I have the option to then exert that lost control within my dominion - say I'd like a koi pond, ideally I can convince the community to work together to make a koi pond, in the event the community does not wish a koi pond, I can create one within my dominion if I'm so inclined - likewise say the community does not want to maintain safe drinking water in a bid to lower community costs, I want the ability to create my own safe drinking water

Of course ideally all the members of the community, myself included, are aligned in the important things and willing to let accommodate individuality like in my examples - but when they don't, and I think the reality is that for many things they won't - is where the hermit cottage is valuable

I would like to live in a community where it was essentially a main street and a small urban area for the trades and business workers and surrounded by many cottages that support and contribute to those businesses and vice versa

I feel like I have a lot to offer to my community, and I have contributed in the past to my neighborhood and participate in events and meetings and projects - but still, I cannot play my music very loud, I cannot raise chickens or bees, I cannot go outside and feel alone without traveling for hours to a state forest, I cannot fix the broken street lamp outside my door on the sidewalk despite reporting it 5 months ago, etc

I'm thinking out loud - and happy for any input you have, and maybe I'm missing something you already know

Something I struggle with is exactly this - of knowing that something greater than the sum can be built with a community, and that trusting in a community can lead to things unexpectedly greater than any single unit can make or design on their own - at the same time, I deeply value my independence and wanting to create my own expression and implementation of things outside of the input of others.

I am complex enough to hold both of those ideas at the same time, but still, I want my multi acre hermit cottage inside of a thriving community and that feels impossible.

Both a deep want to participate and contribute to the community- and to be independent and have access to solitude

I don't know how to connect the two yet, and I don't want to chose one while forsaking the other.

Rip - I loved WoW's art style as a kid growing up playing free trials over and over on burner email accounts

Birp is also fantastic: https://www.birp.fm/

A monthly playlist of about a 100 songs from small artists, not all of its to my taste, but there's definitely some diamonds in the rough and a lot of exposure to the unfamiliar

So you care about what he dosent say, but dont care about what he actually says and does.

Got it.

This book should fulfill all your goals - it doesn't leave a single word unsaid: https://shop.merriam-webster.com/products/websters-third-new-international-dictionary-unabridged?_pos=1&_fid=95a7efe7f&_ss=c

Because he's said multiple times that that word should instead be attributed by the international court of justice

https://www.cnn.com/2024/05/09/politics/video/israel-genocide-bernie-sanders-collins-source-digvid

Its intentional that he doesn't say genocide, because its a powerful legal word and he believes its not his place to apply it - however his stance and his actions are clear - abundantly clear - latching onto this one point, that he explicitly has a rationale for is silly at best, and deceptive at worst.

Here's Bernie in 1988 talking about Israeli war crimes against Palestine: https://youtu.be/TocimL0AT1w

I bet Trump's team feels so clever with this scheme, the bastards

I could not get past the opening flashforward at the start of the season, its content too morbid and topical for me to want to watch things build up to that scene over the season or watch them try to renounce the darkness as some joke. The worlds rough right now and just couldn't push through it despite loving seasons 1 and 2.

Rosemary

There's a joke I heard young from sponge Bob about driving, but it stuck with me and helped. Dont press the pedals with your whole foot - press them with just your big toe.

https://youtu.be/0daeYpKG8c4

Also check out a video on "the chauffer/limousine stop" for addition soft braking technique

https://youtube.com/shorts/dKuD1szdmjI