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  • Here’s an idea: You don’t get to decide if being trans is normal or fine. You don’t get to decide how others choose to live their life or express themselves. You don’t know the struggles that we go through; the hate we have to deal with daily.

    Walk a mile in our shoes. We now have to worry about people following us into bathrooms. Our access to medical care and resources, as grown adults, is somehow up for debate. We’ve been scrubbed from nearly all federal websites. We are being removed from anti-discrimination policies, and for what purpose? What good does that do?

    There is a reason why our suicide rates are so high. The lack of acceptance by our own families, by the nation we were taught in school is the greatest on earth.

    We are defensive because we are afraid that we will be pushed to the edge of society—back into the shadows—because people are uncomfortable with us.

    We deserve the same life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness that any American deserves. I am a goddamn American citizen, born and raised, and I feel like this country would rejoice if I were dead.

    My ex said to me, upon finding out that I wasn’t straight: What if our son grows up to be not straight? I told her: I hope he grows up to be straight. I don’t wish the evils of this world upon him, just for being who he is.

    That was a truly sad day for me.

    Being a patriot means fighting for ALL Americans, not just those that you believe deserve it.

    We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed, by their Creator, with certain unalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness

    Edit: I may have bitten the onion. I really hope this post was meant as satire. But it’s hard to parse these days.

  • HBO can eat a bag of rusty nails. Rowling is a piece of shit, and they tacitly support her views by giving her even a single cent.

  • They deserve nothing. They wish to rob us of our dignity. I say we rob them of theirs.

  • I will rejoice when I learn of his death. No fucking cap.

  • Not well! My son has an event in Kentucky next weekend. The last time we went, there was trump merch and shit at literally every stand. I’m legit nervous to go this time. The rhetoric has gotten so out of hand, I’m afraid.

  • Mrs. Renfro’s Habanero Salsa is really yummy and pretty spicy. Their ghost pepper salsa is really spicy!

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  • Happy for you! That’s awesome.

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  • Fair! Do you think that you’d like to have your own kids with hubby at some point or is this enough for you?

    You can tell me to stop asking so many questions, it’s cool lol.

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  • Gotcha. Well I hope that things with the bio mom get better over time.

    What has been the most rewarding part of being a stepmom?

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  • Dang.

    Follow up: How long have you been a stepmom for?

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  • What has been the most challenging aspect of being a stepmom?

    Also, out of curiosity, how old is your husband? (You don’t have to answer that if you don’t want to)

  • Damn that rings too true for me. Feels like I’ve experienced all of those things in the past couple of weeks.

  • Thanks for the suggestion. I’ll definitely think about it.

  • I wish she’d see me as more than a friend, but tonight I realized that that will never happen. We had a wonderful time together. We laughed and cried. She showed me the texts between her and this new guy she likes. I need to be happy for her, but who’s happy for me? Who’s there for me? I want so badly for it to be her, but it never will be. I will have to continue down this path alone. Things are better off without me.

  • I found a place to hide at work last night (it was very slow) and cried it out for a little while. It helped. I still feel like shit, but the intrusive thoughts are a lot quieter right now. I just want to be happy, but I don’t see it happening. I was able to put the mask back on, so I’m not drawing the attention of those around me. Just keep faking it.

  • Thank you for the clarity. No one understands the struggle…but you seem to. If I’m not careful, I will confess to my best friend. But looking at it logically, there is not a single timeline in which this doesn’t end with the end of our multi-year relationship. There are times in which I truly believe the world would be better without me. Maybe this is one of those times. I’m definitely legally drunk, and will sleep and have nightmares of what could be. I wish I could sleep and never wake up.

  • Mental Health @lemmy.world
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I have bipolar 2 disorder. I’m tired of trying new meds/therapies that are supposed to help. I’m tired of it all. I have no hope anymore.

    cross-posted from: https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/25065914

    I'll never be more than a fetish to people

    Mods, please lmk if this post is not appropriate for this community

    My dream is to have someone—anyone—see me as more than just a friend. To have someone who wants me, in more than just a sexual way. That dream haunts me.

    The only attention I receive is from Grindr. I see my worth as how much I can starve myself to stay thin. I figure at least if I’m petite, pervs online will want to use me as part of their fetish. I oblige them because they desire me in those fleeting moments. After they get what they want, they never contact me again. That is my value as a person.

    I’m so insecure, so unconfident. I see people like my best friend, who can get any guy she wants without even trying, and I have only envy and resentment. What’s worse, I think I have feelings for her, unrequited love that will only serve to hurt more as she explores her new life as a single woman.

    Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I'll never be more than a fetish to people

    Mods, please lmk if this post is not appropriate for this community

    My dream is to have someone—anyone—see me as more than just a friend. To have someone who wants me, in more than just a sexual way. That dream haunts me.

    The only attention I receive is from Grindr. I see my worth as how much I can starve myself to stay thin. I figure at least if I’m petite, pervs online will want to use me as part of their fetish. I oblige them because they desire me in those fleeting moments. After they get what they want, they never contact me again. That is my value as a person.

    I’m so insecure, so unconfident. I see people like my best friend, who can get any guy she wants without even trying, and I have only envy and resentment. What’s worse, I think I have feelings for her, unrequited love that will only serve to hurt more as she explores her new life as a single woman. I don’t think even she sees me as a woman, but as a feminine man who lies to himself in the mirror each day. A pretender

    Relationship Advice @lemmy.world
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I think I am falling for my best friend

    This is messy, contradicting, and wrong.

    My best friend, who I will call Grace, is an amazing woman. She is caring, fiercely independent, and protective of those she loves. Breathtakingly beautiful, both inside and out. We all have our flaws, and I know hers and accept them as they are. We’ve been like sisters for 5 years now. Grace is a cis woman, and I am a trans woman.

    She is in the process of leaving her husband of 20 years, which has been a long time coming. He’s a good man, but a shit husband to her. I’ve been there for her throughout this entire difficult period of her life. Nobody knows her like I do.

    I date men exclusively, as does she. Women just don’t have the right…equipment for me. I do like and prefer only the male anatomy, or so I thought. But she is something special. All that said, I think I might be falling in love with her.

    Grace is in such a vulnerable place right now. She just wants to be happy. I just want to see her smile, hear her goofy laugh. We have

    Music Production @sh.itjust.works
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I finished and released two songs!

    I like making music on my iPhone with GarageBand. Working within the limits makes for some interesting results. Obviously mastering is a bit difficult, but I got my music to where I enjoy it, and I hope others will too.

    I’m on Apple Music with my first release. I’m just waiting for the other streaming platforms to release it as well.

    I’d love feedback/criticism! I suppose my “schtick” is that I make mobile music, so bear that in mind.

    Eventually I’ll learn how to use software on my Mac to produce, but for now am content with the setup I use.

    I hope this is OK to post here.

    Technology @beehaw.org
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Samsung TV's voice assistant is suddenly in Russian, happening worldwide (it seems)

    cross-posted from: https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/21327394

    [email protected] removed my post, without any sort of notification, which is lame and annoying.

    Here is the original text, copied verbatim:

    Something is going on with Samsung TV's voice assistant

    My TV has suddenly started to interpret voice commands as if I was speaking Russian. Users on Samsungs community forum are reporting the same issue. There are users on Reddit who are also reporting the same issue.

    A quick google search shows that this is worldwide, and that it started somewhere between 3-5 days ago.

    What the hell is going on, Samsung?

    (I am not seeking tech support or advice, just raising awareness to what is hopefully a benign problem.)

    Samsung @lemmy.world
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Samsung TV's voice assistant is suddenly in Russian, happening worldwide (it seems)

    [email protected] removed my post, without any sort of notification, which is lame and annoying.

    Here is the original text, copied verbatim:

    Something is going on with Samsung TV's voice assistant

    My TV has suddenly started to interpret voice commands as if I was speaking Russian. Users on Samsungs community forum are reporting the same issue. There are users on Reddit who are also reporting the same issue.

    A quick google search shows that this is worldwide, and that it started somewhere between 3-5 days ago.

    What the hell is going on, Samsung?

    (I am not seeking tech support or advice, just raising awareness to what is hopefully a benign problem.)

    Ask Lemmy @lemmy.world
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I'm stuck at home for the next 9 days, what should I do?

    I’m off until at least 5 Feb due to a boxers fracture. I’m getting sick of TV and movies. Today I’ll clean my apartment, but even with my busted hand it will only take a couple of hours. I can’t really go anywhere as I need to save as much money as I can to cover for missed time at work.

    Here’s what I’ve tried so far:

    • Solve Rubik’s cubes
    • Work on music production
    • Sleep

    Thing I probably should do:

    • Continue to learn Swift
    • Follow makeup tutorials

    Lemmy, what would you do?

    EDIT: Keep ‘em coming Lemmsters! I LOVE the suggestions, and can’t wait to give some of these a go!

    Technology @lemmy.ml
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Proton Mail Auctioning Rare 'X' Username for Charity, Current Bid as of Posting is $50,000,000USD

    Looking through the history looks a bit suspicious. Even if the questionable bids were removed, it’s still likely to be 100k+ for the username!

    Edit: Closer to $15k right now lol.

    pics @lemmy.world
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    This knockoff iPhone 12 Pro Max has what appears to be a thin lead bar under the battery.

    The metal is smooth, but not shiny. It is super bendable. As soon as I realized what it was, I stopped handling it and washed my hands.

    Lead is heavy, but seems such an odd choice for a weight in a consumer device. It must have been cheaper or even free.

    Asklemmy @lemmy.ml
    Jessica @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    NSFW: I am a trans girl who is drunk and high at the same time, AMA!

    Give me your worst, Lemmy! Absolutely nothing is off limits. Let’s get fucking weird!

    I post this here because /c/iama doesn’t seem to be a thing…

    Don’t hold back you jerks!

    EDIT: It’s just about 05:00 for me. Night night! I’ll answer any other questions. In a few hours!