I'm really sorry that life has been so rough for you. I wish I could offer you some sort of comfort. Your post was very relatable to me, although your situation is definitely much worse than mine.
Have you thought about reaching out to Steve? Maybe sending him a message on that social media site where you found his profile? I know it's easy to think "oh they wouldn't want to hear from me" or something similar, but you never know. He might be very happy to hear from you, maybe he's been missing you too over the years and just didn't have your contact info.






I completely understand, I'm also disabled and have similar feelings about not wanting anyone to see me (I honestly can't even remember the last time I left my apartment). And I know what you mean about people being so judgmental if you're unemployed, it really sucks. Feel free to message me if you ever want someone to chat with. I wish you all the best in finding whatever level of comfort or stability you can in your situation.