holiday/boulevard of broken dreams by green day
yay
i take pictures every day usually, might upload here daily? idk
-i dont feel any weirdness calling myself a lesbian, trans women are women after all. this stigma fades after enough time to let it become normal
-im not diagnosed but pretty sure lol, not a position id give advice from though
-assuming your parents arent helicopter patents and invading your privacy, feminine undergarments are good outlets for this. i used to wear cheap sports bras (the ones with no padding, just the fabric/elastic) under my shirt. compression underwear (gaffe) or just womens underwear in general are nice too
shaving your body is a good way as well, and if you are allowed to grow out your hair then styling that in some way (even if its just a ponytail or bun) is nice
-still in my hometown
-couldnt see a therapist not because of my parents (money and priorities) for a long time, but i dealt with my mental health struggles through online gaming and friend groups. sorta brute forcing myself to be confident, and keeping in mind that it gets better. therapy helps though, even if slowly with how good i am at masking
swapnote girl is adorable and always stuck with me
gave up on the game when they decided to block linux users from playing (the game runs fine on steam deck through proton though :/)
disappointed that i cant play, an open world dress up game is such a fun idea
parents understand and support me
siblings (that im in contact with) support me, others i lost contact for other reasons before coming out
grandparents love me but genuinely dont understand trans people at a fundamental level, i still need to explain a lot to them
generally everyone ive come out to are supportive, everyone i havent dont even recognize me or think im one of my sisters so whatever lol
Unfortunately to a lot of right wing people ive talked to im just "one of the good ones", which obviously is meaningless when theyre trying to erase our existence.
Some folks are swayed by just being around a real queer person with feelings and emotions though, instead of just being a statistic to bash on the tv screen
lol you're the second person to relate me to her, thanks :3
been loving how my makeup has come out the last few days
it was cheese, crackers, pepperoni, and pop tarts
green day all day rn, my girlfriend got me their entire discography and ive been loving it. saviors is an amazing album on top of their classics
i play funky flame runner or daisy mach bike cuz im a sweatlord lol, she uses peach on the dolphin dasher since shes new and its a friendly combo
if you exhale before the sneeze comes out it makes it cute for some reason
who gives a shit what this roach infested meathead says
added my girlfriends love triangle (her, computer, phone) recently and its been chaotic (im going outside)
aww thanks
was my first session with her, was nice talking about myself a bit. i only really need help getting over the hurdle of starting things, once im going i am GOING lol
honestly dont mind, gives me time to jam out (hence the headphones), thanks :3
happy trans day of visibility <3
therapy waiting room selfie yipee
hell yeah
she cheated on you, despite any feelings you might have that relationship is over. im sorry to hear this happened to you, its really a terrible feeling
my girlfriend gave me a big cheat sheet so ill paste that here :3
some things i like to remember that arent in this are that when youre buying concealer and foundation to get them around your skin tone, slightly lighter. youll get the hang of it after a couple goes!
always make sure to wipe off at night so you dont break out
Guide to Makeup:
1 - Spray Primer on face and rub it around till it covers entire face + front of neck.
3 - Apply concealer to face. Cover any blemishes such as pimples and cuts, personally I cover my brow bone because I find it not feminine enough for my tastes with myself. If you do the brow bone make sure to get under the eyebrows. Get under your eyes no matter what, and get right beneath your adams apple if you so please to lighten up the bottom so it looks less pronounced.
9 - Take your sponge and rub the concealer you put on your face around in a circular motion to blend.
2 - With the same sponge squirt liquid foundation on it and basically rub it all over your face and neck making sure to blend it all together, it should look fairly seamless with your face.
6 - Take a brush or the brush in the case for the blush and smile and apply it to your now pronounced cheeks.
(Optional) - Apply fake eyelashes with eye glue on the band. Attach with care, this may take a few attempts don’t get discouraged even if it takes upwards of 10 or more.
4-5 - Take a smaller brush and apply the eye shadow of your choice to your eyelids. You can do this last but it’s better to do so first or you may have to redo your eyeliner to get it to be bold.
7 - Take your eyeliner and make a very light outline directly beneath your eye, practically on the bottom of the crease where your eye is. Optionally add what is called a “Wing” to your eyes by draw the brush from the skin on the outside of your eye to the corner of your eye, this gives it a triangle esque shape. Then make an outline on the bottom of your eyelid, this can be a little thicker than our previous line.
8 - Apply Mascara to eye lashes, this is easy enough.
learned how to do my makeup recently, unbelievably happy how i look
you may be right but holy shit who cares lol