DisabledAceSocialist

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 2d ago

It's all bad therapy on the NHS. I'll give some examples. I had one therapist who was this hippie woman in purple flowing robes. I explained to her that I've already made one suicide attempt and was on the brink of making another. I told her all my issues. Her therapy was that she told me to buy the New Age book "The Secret," about the law of attraction and use it to attract whatever I want into my life, then my life will be great and I won't be suicidal any more.

Another therapist, the entire therapy was her telling me to write lists of why I shouldn't feel bad. Write a list of reasons why I shouldn't feel depressed, or anxious, and whenever I feel depressed or anxious, look at the list and I won't feel depressed or anxious any more. Surprisingly, didn't help.

My last therapist did EDMR, and I asked for that but she refused. She said EDMR is only for people who are no longer in the bad spot in their lives. Since my life is still bad it will be totally unsuitable and make me feel worse. So she just wasted the time in our sessions doing nonsense like shitty guided meditations and drawing pictures, anything to fill up the time so she could collect her paycheque. When I said the sessions weren't working for me and I wanted to quit, she said if I quit she would inform the DWP. She'd written a letter of support for my benefit appeal, and said she would call them and retract it if I quit (because if I quit she would no longer get paid.) I said, this could cause me to lose my benefit appeal, leave me permanently destitute and I'd end up homeless. She didn't care at all and said if I end up homeless, she'll give the phone number of a homeless shelter. The bleach and room scents in that building also gave me severe migraines every week and she didn't care and ignored my requests to move the sessions to a different room or outside.

I had one therapist who, when I spoke about a time I'd been kidnapped off the street and SA'd by a gang of 4 men, tried to get me to sympathise with my attackers and see it from their point of view, saying they were probably just victims going through a hard time themselves. I was even told that my choice of attire had encouraged the attack.

I was given two therapy sessions straight after my suicide attempt. This was when I was in the intensive care unit, still being treated for the physical affects. I was extremely confused due to the high levels of medication I was on and they actually thought this was a good time to make me go through therapy. I was so ill I couldn't sit up, so confused I didn't know what was happening during the sessions and after one session the therapist just put me out the door expecting me to find my own way back to my bed. I was so confused and lost I ended up sitting on the floor in a hallway with my head between my knees, not knowing what to do or where to go until the nurses from the ward eventually came looking for me and found me when I didn't return after a while.

These are just a few examples. This is the therapy that's on offer from the NHS. It is all worse than useless and I really hope I never have to engage with any of it ever again.

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3d ago

I've thought about it but I don't think so. He might want to meet up and I'm just not well enough. Also too embarrassed to see people I used to know as I look terrible, my hair is falling out, I'm swollen and puffy with edema, I've lost 4 teeth, my skin is a wreck and I walk with a limp. And it's just embarrassing that I'm alone and have done nothing with my life. I know people will say "Oh he's your friend, he won't care," but there have been a few instances over the years where I have bumped into someone I used to know, they've asked me what I've been doing and when they find out I'm long term unemployed they make it clear they are disgusted and unimpressed and don't see my health issues as a good excuse. Most people are so brainwashed by capitalism that all that really matters to them is your employment status.

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3d ago

I've had 5 mental health therapies on the NHS already and they were all so awful most actually made me feel worse. Therapy is totally pointless for anything other than trying to help me win my benefit appeal.

DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3d ago

I am not saying Steve should have kept in touch with me. I wouldn't have been able to socialise anyway as I've spent a large chunk of the past 17 years in hospital/bedridden/too sick for social contact anyway as I've had cancer and a stroke. I'm just saying seeing the social media page reminded me of how my life could have been filled with friends and happiness if I hadn't got sick.

DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 6d ago

it's a video.

DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 2w ago

So he'll be giving away his wealth then?

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

What's the hypothesis?

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

A lot of the time, if I actually manage to get an appointment, it's not even with a GP but a nurse, or now they even have paramedics and other similar people doing appointments at the surgery. These have been even worse than the GP. The nurses always say they don't understand blood test results and have to ask a GP and get back to me, and usually no-one gets back to me and I have to chase them up. When my folate deficiency symptoms started and we had no idea what was causing it, I was first given an appointment with a nurse who said she would ask the GP what to do and get back to me. She never did. Months passed as I waited, always expecting a call and my symptoms got much worse, in the end I kept trying to get an appointment with a GP and eventually got one and they said "Oh it looks like the nurse just forgot to follow it up."

One time I went with a UTI and was given an appointment with a paramedic. He was extremely unprofessional, made inappropriate sexual remarks, didn't know which part of the body was affected by a UTI and refused to give me antibiotics so my situation deteriorated. I actually ended up making a complaint about him but nothing came of it.

It's just utterly impossible to get any adequate treatment at all.

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

It's infuriating that I've ended up on so many meds I can hardly manage them, and it's all because of side effects. The cancer meds caused me to have a stroke so now I am prescribed two stroke meds. It also caused food intolerances so i can eat very few foods without getting sick, so I've developed deficiencies and been prescribed vitamin injections and pills. One of these vitamins (folic acid) gives me terrible UTIs so I need antibiotics and bladder meds. These also have side effects. These issues have wrecked my skin so now I have eczema (so bad I've been hospitalised multiple times when it gets terribly infected), dermatitis and infected foot ulcers. It's caused chronic migraines so now I take migraine meds which have side effects, and many others.

And with the folic acid, it took seeing multiple doctors before they accepted that the folic acid was causing my UTIs. A simple google search would have shown them that folic acid is known to cause UTIs and other bladder issues but most doctors are too arrogant to even check something they haven't heard before and just dismissed me. And the latest bladder med they prescribed, in the side effects it lists UTIs, bleeding in urine and bladder pain as side effects! I've been begging to see a urologist for ages but they just keep fobbing me off with pills.

DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

We need a revolution, French style or Russian style.

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

It was a side effect of my cancer treatment. And what really pisses me off is that I wasn't warned about any of the side effects. I had two options for treatment, radioactive iodine, which they admitted had side effects, or "over treatment" with thyroxine, which means taking a higher than necessary dose of thyroxine for life, to supress any remaining cancer cells and stop it from spreading again. They said this option didn't have any side effects, so i chose that. Well it turns out it does have many side effects including strokes, heart problems, development of food intolerances, temperature regulation issues, skin problems, mental health issues, exhaustion and brain fog and many other things, all of which I have developed. It can also apparently cause other cancers, that's the only side effect I haven't had yet. And of course with all the health problems it's caused it has also condemned me to a life of poverty and loneliness as I can no longer work or have a social life.

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

Everything in the UK is about saving a penny now, even if it costs a pound later. Like they're cancelling 140K operations to save money, never mind the knock-on effects from that. After my stroke they gave me a shitty physiotherapy session every few months so I never recovered, and now I'm disabled for life which costs the NHS more and if I win my claim they'll have to start paying me disability again instead of fixing me while there was time so I could become a functioning member of society again.

DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

yep.

DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

There's a lot of speculation that American big business is paying British politicians to destroy the NHS and maker us have private healthcare so the American insurance companies can do big business here.

DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 3w ago

Thank you. I'm just so used to it by now, and too exhausted to even try and complain any more. Also mental health treatment on the NHS is rubbish anyway. I spent 5 years on the waiting list to get like 8 sessions with an idiot who just told me to draw pictures and meditate.

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DisabledAceSocialist @lemmygrad.ml 4w ago

Thank you but I have totally given up hoping for anything better. It's such a struggle to get any kind of help in the UK - my disability is worsening over time rather than improving because the NHS is so crap, my physiotherapy sessions are so few and far between. It's got to the stage that I've had two bad falls in the past two months, couldn't get up, struggle to get dressed and put my own shoes on, my weak left side is always riddled with injuries and inflammation that makes it difficult to walk, my cancer treatment has left me exhausted and with all sorts of problems and I'll spend the rest of my life constantly being reassessed for benefits and fighting benefit appeals. Nothing will ever get better. But having some sessions with a silly person telling me to write lists and draw pictures is supposed to cure this.