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I'm sorry you're suffering so much. I like seeing you around and would be sad if you stopped posting, but at the same time you have to do what you have to do for your health and safety. This response sounds really unhealthy and I would guess your therapist is right, there's some really deep trauma it's hooking into because without some missing piece the level of distress you feel about it doesn't make sense. Someone on the internet was wrong, and was wrong about you, and then people upvoted it likely following a bandwagon effect (automatically upvoting the highest rated comment because it's the highest). You weren't in the wrong, and many more people than I have told you so, but the fact that one person said otherwise has had a disproportionately harsh impact on you. I hope you can get another session to help you soothe.

FWIW I bet you're a much more liked Hexbearian here than that other poster who had the objectively incorrect take siding with your brother.

I didn't know broccolini was across between broccoli (mid) and gai lan (amazing!). I saw your title and was going to recommend gai lan.

Gai choy (Chinese mustard) is also really good.

New York War Crimes

My fucked up logic is telling me that killing myself is being kind

I've been dealing with this exact thought for 6 months now (though for a different reason than you, more personal than global) and I cannot find an argument against it in my case. I am only still alive and suffering because if / when I die, it will transfer the incurable torture I am being subjected to onto my family and friends. Death may be a kindness for the individual, but it tortures the survivors who love and miss that individual. I have tried to speak with my loved ones and prepare them for my death by getting them to understand that for me, death would be a mercy, and they should be glad when I die, but nobody listens and even those who see my point are still sad at the prospect of me no longer being in their lives. My inability to protect them from the torture of grief has kept me going because I am trying to stave off inflicting that torture upon my loved ones. Do you have anyone in your life whom you love whom you want to protect from the unbearable grief of losing a loved one to suicide?

As far as sticking it to the fascists goes, suicide isn't the way to do that. Fascists gloat when people they deem removed kill ourselves. They want a world where we don't exist, and killing ourselves is a victory for them. As far as not being a chew toy for the fascists goes, we can oppose them more by living than by dying. A dead person can't break a fascist's nose in a streetfight (because if we can't beat fascism outright, we can at least hurt individual fascists for revenge). A dead person can't cyberbully and doxx fascists into feeling unsafe. A dead person can't help other people, can't ameliorate anyone else's suffering, can't shelter family or friends or strangers in the community from the harms that fascism does.

Some months ago a comrade told me not to kill myself because we need as many leftists around to be part of the community and culture as possible, that even if I'm too cripplingly depressed to go out protesting anymore, there's still value in just being around to talk with other leftists and provide emotional support. Paltry as it is, even these online connections are something. Going to movie nights and chatting with people has taken the edge off my perpetual suffering in this past half year. Just a little, but enough that it's one of the few things I feel any positive anticipation for. We post online and never know who was touched and helped by seeing there's a likeminded person out there, that we aren't quite as alone as we feel.

I think about the eternal peace death will finally bring me.

I've thought about this too and I came to realize something: What I want is peace, happiness even, and Death is not that. Death would end my suffering, but it would also make it so that the very last thing I ever feel is sheer, utter Torment. Just as sleep is not a passive thing, nor is Peace. Peace is not just the absence of suffering, but the presence of contentment. And it is impossible to feel that, or anything else, after death. Similarly, no, planets devoid of life are not peaceful. Peace is something that requires life to experience.

But I'm so scared of killing myself

Same.

I can't bear to look at the state of this world anymore

It's ok to take a step back and try to focus on building something in your life that brings you comfort and happiness instead. It's not immoral to find happiness in a sick world.

Make a show out of it. There's a reason lone wolf adventurism is largely a right wing tactic. It's individualistic and largely ineffective and I'd caution you against that because the hammer comes down on survivors. For example, I heard from a comrade that Willem Von Spronson's attempt to burn down ICE vehicles brought the hammer down on activist networks out there and had an overwhelmingly negative impact while achieving basically nothing.

Your sentiments are very understandable. Please think about whether there's anything else in your life that is distressing you, or that you feel is lacking, and see if you can find some happiness or something to enjoy in life. If you do rage-quit from life that's your choice, but imo it should be the very last resort and should basically be something people are forced into, not something people jump to.

In my opinion, the reasons you have laid out for killing yourself are valid reasons to suffer, but they are not sufficient to go through with self-annihilation If it's because you're angry and hateful that fascism is winning and keeps winning, there are more productive ways to harness that righteous anger than doing the fascists' work for them. If it's because it hurts to look at the awful state of the world, then take a break from looking for a bit and see if there's anything more productive you can do with your time and energy. Witnessing and suffering without acting is pointles self-flagellation. Help someone out, if you can -- it's still "pointless" in the grand scheme in that nothing any of us do will defeat fascism, but it makes a real difference to someone, and that's not nothing.

Look, Shrek 1 is great, Shrek 2 is OK, but I don't recognize any other Shreks. With just 2 movies that are both over a decade old there isn't that much new to discuss.

My favorite bit account

They're incredibly cute so people go "damn what if this was bigger"?

Like, I want uant bumblebees to be a thing. Because they're so cute and it would be nice to see them in more detail

Sorry gang, not even hate-watching with comrades can get me to watch Marvel slop. Please tell the 1win logo on the camrip hello for me, because I've gotten kind of fond of it even though gambling is haram.

Only comments I ever make on people's appearance are if they've clearly put thought and effort into something about their outfit and it may brighten their day to hear those choices validated. And it's gotta be something innocuous that can't come off as sexualizing them like, "love those spider earrings" or "the birds on that dress are great". Basically, validating the choices and efforts someone's made about their outfit, never anything about their actual body because 1. that's very invasive and unwanted and 2. there is only a very small degree to which people have any control over their bodies' appearances.

It's weird but I've gotten compliments from people, mostly women, on my body, out of nowhere, and it's just come across as creepy. It would have been much appreciated if we were together or had some established relationship but these are complete strangers commenting on how nice my eyes or arms or facial structure is and I'm just like "get away get away get away"

But someone commenting that they like my death to fascism shirt, or some band shirt? That's totally fine.

Throwing rocks at them

Good. Diverse and marginalized people shouldn't be collaborating with the CIA. Woke imperialism is still imperialism

Also, not owls, but the US did try to use bats for warfare in Project X-Ray as an alternative to the Manhattan Project (CW, awful animal cruelty): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bat_bomb

Owls are too principled to work for AmeriKKKa though.

RIP Chuck. Love these album covers too

I'm going to yuck this yum.

Also, your wife isn't minding your consent.

95% sure this is just a bad bit but if not, tell her to not be an asshole about sexual consent and stop pressuring you to do something you don't want to do

Of course not. They did everything in their power to stop his rise.

They didn't promote his 2016 primary run because they thought it would make the election a shoo-in for Hillary if he won the nomination.

They didn't ratfuck the only candidate who paid even lip-service to addressing the economic contradictions inherent to capitalism which immiserate the populace. They didn't choose to run a corporate-owned, deeply unpopular warmonger instead. They ran a strong candidate who was universally beloved by Americans, someone who is so radiant and pure of heart that she is light itself.

They didn't play into every provocation from Trump to act as part of his PR machine a la the Streisand effect.

They didn't bungle governance for 4 years so badly that people were eager for a change.

They didn't handle Covid worse than Trump and get far more people killed and disabled by it with their grand reopening.

They didn't doggedly commit to genocide even knowing it would cost them votes in key battleground states.

The Democrats did nothing to help Trump rise to power and did everything they could to stop his rise, but Trump was too much of a political mastermind and he was willing to break rules to win. He's only won because he lies and cheats, which the Democrats never do.

Frankly, it is concerning and problematic of you to even ask that question because everyone knows the answer is obviously "No". Would you ask other questions where the answer is obviously no, such as "Does a bear not shit in the woods?", "Did NATO expansion trigger Putin's invasion of Ukraine?", "should the US stop funding and arming Israel?"

I'm getting really strong Russian bot vibes from this poster. Mods, where are you? Why haven't you banned this propagandist yet?

Just you wait, "/u/Dirt_Owl", if that's your real name -- or should I say грязная сова -- I've summoned the mods and they'll soon deport you back to RuZZia.

Unlimited

You write beautifully and convey your agony well. I'm sorry you're suffering such a horrible cruelty of fate. There is no inherent fairness or justice to the world, and there is certainly nothing that you could have done to have caused her cancer. Cancer is something that just happens to some people. Genetics, bad luck, environmental factors outside our control, and a whole bunch of ???????UNKNOWNS???????? are responsible. Not burnt food. Not a doughnut here or there. Not frozen food.

There's a tendency when disaster happens to try to wonder what we could have done to prevent it. The psychological reason is to feel some sense of control and think "well, it won't happen again". It's a protective thing. It's irrational, because it already happened, but humans are deeply irrational creatures and it comes out of our survival mechanisms.

The anger and bitterness you feel are natural feelings and I hope you do not judge yourself for them. It's not disgusting for you to feel the way you're feeling. Grief is a monster. Grief is horrible torture, and I've seen and lived firsthand what it can do to people. It can torture people into being angry and bitter and hateful. It can break people of everything they believe, because the most important thing of all is for the pain to end. Torture breaks people, and make no mistake, the agony of grief and loss is torture.

If you're able to find therapy, you may benefit from it. If you're able to access a grief support group, you may benefit from one. I briefly went to this grief support group before I had a time conflict come up and they seemed good. It was surprisingly helpful. One thing that was good about it was that it is peer led instead of having a system, so people can speak more freely about their struggles without worrying about getting narcd on: https://kivacenters.org/online-peer-support/, they've got a Living with Loss support group. They're based in Massachussets time so I think that's eastern time in the US.

I'm sorry, comrade. This life is not fair.

I have never heard anything from Ze Frank that'd make me think he's a tankie but if he is I will love him even more.