This seems like an important community, and the people here are wonderful.

I just wanted to let anyone here know that you are in a safe space and can share ❤️ and even though there aren't many posts here this doesn't mean no one will see your post. Hope you are having a nice day 😊

In the last year I have discovered that my childhood memories are pretty lacking, like I don't remember major life events and even whole periods of time.

The more I thought about it, the scarier it got. The feeling of having zero recollection of things that people around me remember, is really scary.

I have some psychological issues that I never really understood the root of but after this, and reading about child abuse and specifically child sexual abuse victims and the symptoms that might develop later in life. I have this feeling that maybe something happened to me, and I even have a "suspect" who is not part of my life anymore but was when I was a child.

I suspect that my mother might know something but this is too scary to ask about, and honestly, too scary to investigate because what if it's true?

Did anyone experience something like this? How did you handle it? Am I just scared because I'm missing memories and want to find a reason for my psychological issues?

Writing this